Parts

I have been through so many bad days and good days. I have passed so many chapters of my life.
When I was so childish, I skipped class by telling teacher that I was sick, I didn't study for exam and got big zero for it.
Then I grow up in one night. I woke up with a brand new mindset. Cause the day before it, I met the biggest sudden changes in my life. It was like a big hand slap on my face, told me to wake up.
I left all the stupid things, all the mistakes I made, and the old me.
As I keep growing, I learn more things.
As I step on new path, start a new chapter, I face new things, new people, and learn new lessons in life.

Remember when I was graduated from Junior HS, I told myself to be a better person, to be a smart student, and make my beloved ones proud of me. I started the new chapter, Senior HS. I learned a lot in that chapter.
I went to several competitions, win and lose, ups and downs. I learned how to work in a team. I learned how to pose on stage when holding a trophy. I learned how to hold on the tears when I lose. I learned how to swallow all the bad words from people who don't understand my position. I learned how to accept reality that I am not the best. I learned to smile when people ask me why I can't get the first place. And the most important lesson that I learned is, how to stay down-to-earth when I am on the highest sky. "Not to be arrogant" is the hardest lesson that I learned in Senior HS, hardest than the Math.

I remember the day when I was standing on stage, giving a speech representing all students that was graduate on that day. I remember how my Mom smiled. I remember how my headmaster praise me when I was shaking hand with him. I remember how my friends cheer for me. And on that day, after all the laughters on graduation ceremony, I realized one thing: a new chapter has began.

When I left that school, I step on a new path. Worklife. I thought Senior HS was the hardest part of my life, but when I was interviewed and accepted in this big manufacture company, I realized, there's no hardest part of our life. Cause every part is getting harder and harder. Yeah, only when we can't handle it. But if we do know how to deal with this life, we can feel that this life is getting easier and easier.

I could say, learn how to deal with customer, how to admit that I was wrong, how to hold on my anger when people are not following the rules, how to keep smiling to people who did scold at me and left big scar on my heart, how to respect others' way of thinking, how to act like I don't mind at all, these, are hardest than any lessons I have learned in previous parts.

I did fail at these lessons. But it doesn't make me stop learning.
The only lesson that I still hard to learn is how to stand alone. How to settle all things by myself. Cause sometimes when you try to settle by yourself, people may accuse you for doing that wrong and say that you can't do it alone. But when we seek for others' help, they will say we can't be independent.

Ya, all life lessons are not easy at all. Nobody will get perfect score for it. And no one can graduate from this life learning class, unless we die.

Anyway, did I write too long?

Mantan

Setiap mantan punya kisah tersendiri
Ada mantan yang pantas dikenang
Ada mantan yang pantas dibuang

Yap. Bener. Ada banyak macam mantan di dunia ini.

Ada mantan satu malam. Ya maksudnya, mantan yang hanya punya kenangan singkat. Pacarannya tidak sampai sebulan. Bahkan bisa dihitung hari.
Mantan semacam ini tidak diragukan lagi, bukan mantan yang pantas dikenang.
Kenapa? Pacaran saja singkat, apa yang mau dikenang? Baru mulai so sweet, eh sudah berpisah. Masa singkat seperti itu tidak memberi bekas dalam otak. Mungkin sebulan pertama setelah putus, masih akan teringat. Tapi tolong, setelah itu buang jauh2. Karena tidak butuh waktu lama, yang bisa dikenang itu juga habis. Alhasil, yang ada di benak kita, "Mantan? Siapa ya?"

Ada mantan terindah.
Ini yang paling banyak dialami. Sudah menjalani masa pacaran yang panjang, dan akhirnya harus berpisah. Banyak moment yang bisa dikenang. Mulai dari moment makan bersama, jalan2 bersama, nonton bersama, chatting lucu, chatting gombal, belajar bersama, berantem, ngambek2an, sampai moment kenalan sama keluarga satu sama lain. Sudah berniat serius dan akhirnya ludes.
Itulah mantan terindah, sekaligus mantan terpahit.

Ada juga mantan sampah.
Mantan, yang seperti sampah. Mantan yang membuat kita berpikir, "Kok bisa sih dulu gue pacaran sama dia?"
Iya, kesambet setan apa kalian bisa sampai punya mantan kayak sampah?
Oke, mantan sampah ini gak ada salahnya juga. Gak perlu kita sesali.
Mantan sampah ini hanyalah mantan yang dulu kita terima dalam keadaan tidak sadarkan diri. Apapun yang kita jalani dengan mereka dulu, kini sudah jadi sampah. Benar2 sampah, tidak pantas dikenang, apalagi disimpan.
Mantan seperti ini hanya bisa dijadikan pelajaran hidup. Jangan sampai pacaran sama sampah lagi.

Dan yang terakhir, mantan tawar.
Mantan tawar, mantan yang tidak ada rasanya. Kita juga tidak tau kenapa dulu bisa pacaran dengannya, tapi dia bukan sampah. Hanya saja, kita tidak ada rasa dengannya. Atau mungkin ada, tapi menipis perlahan. Sampai akhirnya tidak ada rasa, dan berpisah.
Makanya, saat berpisah, menjadi mantan, perasaan kita tawar. Kita tidak sedih juga tidak bahagia.
Mantan itu tidak dikenang, juga tidak dibuang.
Tapi kadang, melihat sang mantan akhirnya bahagia dengan yang lain, sebersit rasa perih itu bisa muncul. Lalu kita menarik nafas dalam dan tersenyum, semoga dia bahagia.
Kita tulus mendoakan. Karena rasa itu tidak ada. Tawar. Benar2 tawar.

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