Sweet Seventeen

July 22nd 1997...
A cute baby was born. A precious gift from God for Mr & Mrs Tan. And they gave an unique name for this baby, SUFIANA.

July 22nd 2014...
It has been 17 years. Thanks GOD. I'm so glad that I'm still alive. It's not easy to pass these years. There were some years when I felt so down, but then I pulled myself. Some people were trying to raise me up. "I must go on with my life," that's what I said 2 years ago.

A lot of things, a lot of people, have accompanied me through these years. I'm very grateful for having them. So, here, let me say thanks to those people.

1. Mom and Dad
Thanks for taking care of me, scolding me, teaching me . You let me know what is wrong and what is right. Thanks for telling me to be a good person. I will not let you disappointed. I promise. Love you..

2. Sisters and family
I remember those days, when we fought, argued. But at the end, we still laughing together. Thanks for all the things that you guys bought for me. Thanks for the treat. Thanks for everything. I know we can't say "I love you, sis" to each other, but deep inside, we love each others.
Thanks Grandma and cousins.

3. Jenny Florentina
Yeah, you  know what I'm gonna say. I can't stop saying thank you for what you gave to me. I don't know how to express my grateful to you. Thank you for your "sexy birthday gift". And one question, did you really use a lipstick and kiss the paper you gave to me???

4. DeCCESSO
These girls have been my best sisters since this Vocational High School. Yeah, they are Devita, Catheline, Celvina, Elina, Sally, and Ovivi. Thanks for being there for me. You guys can make me laugh, make me cry, and make me angry sometimes. But whatever we did, we still stay together. I never expected that this friendship will last long, I'm afraid we will fall apart slowly. But, what you guys said and did, really make me believe that this friendship can last long. Thanks Devita for being my soulmate, thanks Cath for being my "ears" and willing to hear all my stories, thanks Celvina for all the gifts and things that you made by yourself, thanks Elina for drive me home and make me laugh, thanks Sally for the understanding through all the problems we faced together, thanks Ovivi for being my sweet "wife". I love you , girls ...

5. Brothers
I never have a lot of brothers like this. Jhonson, Steven Zhou, Steven Athiam, Billy, Jefferson, and Kelvianto. You guys are my awesome brothers. Make me laugh, give me advices, hear my story, and making fool of me sometimes. Thanks for all the things you gave to me, for all the times you spend with me. Thank you very much. (Special thanks for Jhonson and Billy for the gifts)

6. All friends around me
Friends from I was in Primary until now. All the friends who were or who are there for me. For the friends who has forget me. For the friends who has lost contact with me. For all of you. All friends from around the world. Thank you.

7. All the people who have been in my life, no matter for a short time or for a long time. Thank you.

Last but not least, I would like to say thanks to my best idol, RUI EN. I know you can't read what I write here, we never meet each other. But I believe you know me. At least, you know that there's a girl in Batam that is always support you and has voted a lot for you in last Star Awards.
People can't believe the reason why I became your fans (or you became my idol). It's a very simple reason, because you changed my life with one of your quotes, "No matter how bad your family situation is, you have a choice not to be a victim". People say I'm crazy when I fangirling over you. People say I'm abnormal for "loving" you. But, I don't care.
You are the only actress in the world that can be my idol for so many years. Thank you very much, Idol. And my wish still the same, I hope I can meet you one day, talk to you, and work alongside with you.

Thank you.. I'm feeling blessed today.

Those 5 Years....

First of all, I would like to say "Happy Birthday" for the 3rd time to Jenny Florentina . Yes, this short girl is 17th years old today! I didn't say any wishes for her today, because I believe she knows what are my wishes for her. One of them is "grow taller".

Actually, July 10th is not only her birthday, but also our "First Met" (even she keeps telling me that our friendship started on July 13th). Girl, we met on July 10th 2009. We were in the same class for student orientation on July 13th-15th 2009. We know each other on July 15th 2009. And yes, our friendship started after the student orientation. But I don't care, July 10th is the anniversary for our friendship.

When I was so excited to celebrate this five years of friendship, I suddenly realized and think, "Well, this is not a wedding anniversary!" I felt abnormal (if you know what I mean). So I decided to "not to excited for it".

I told you I have something to show you, Jenny. So this is it:

I draw this on Paint. So fail, I know. Actually I did a drawing by myself, on a paper, but it looks so awful, so I decided to make it on Paint (and the result is as awful as the one I draw by myself). I am not good at drawing. Thanks.

I think you know what I am going to express in this picture. I want to tell the story of us, ehem, yeah the story of us. When was the first time we met, until today.

I remember those days when we didn't talk to each other just because that stupid misunderstanding.
I remember when we walked home together, and it was raining.
I remember when you called me "MAMA" on the football competition. All people are looking at us. I know what they thought, "Her mom also come to play football???"
I remember when were so disappointed because we are not in the same class in this Senior High School.
I remember, yeah like what you've said, how we tasting the God's miracle together.
I remember those days.

You know why I really cherish this friendship? Because I didn't have any real best friend until I met you. I know this sounds a little bit disgusting. Haha. But seriously, since I was a little child, I believe in friendship. So much. When I was in Primary 1, I have a friend. She is very nice to me. And when I was going to move to Batam, she gave me a hairpin. I was very touched that time. But I can't remember what did she say to me or what did we do together that time. I don't even remember her name.......

After I move to Batam, I didn't have any friends. I found one that time, her name is Silvia Indirani, but she left Batam with no reason. Until now, I don't know where is she. I don't know what happened to her that time. I just know that she didn't come to school and I thought she was sick. One day, two day, three day, until one week. My teacher told me she has moved. But they didn't tell me the reason or where she moved to.

I have a lot of friends in Primary School, but none of them are true friends. I couldn't find any best friend in Junior High School. When we didn't talk to each other, I thought that you will not be my best friend anymore. But, we are destined to be best friend forever.

Time flies. We've spent five years together. It's not easy.

Thank you for being my best friend, my sister, and my daughter.
Thank you for all the advices, praises, critics, and insults.
Thank you for the tears and laughters.
Thank you....

I remember you told me, "Crying is useless..." Do you remember that?